At Skycrest we have been going through what we are calling a 60/60 experiment. The idea is that every 60 minutes for 60 days we have some sort of alarm, chime, or buzzer sounding that reminds us that we are called to live in the continual presence of God. When the alarm sounds we are to pray, quote a memory verse, or do some sort of assessment about our last hour before God.
That may sound gimmicky to you, but please don't knock it until you've tried it. What I have learned is that I'm not as well connected as I thought I was. The number of times I have been caught completely unawares by that beep and what it stood for is alarming, and the number of times that I've responded inhospitably to the reminder of God's gracious presence is disappointing. But I am grateful for my beeping watch, even though I don't act like it sometimes. Hopefully a habit is forming while I am transforming, but I won't really know until the fruit grows and the inspection is complete.
As we have been going through this experience/experiment, a question has been taking shape within me. It's a question that I have always known the answer to, or at least had an answer for, but now I'm not so sure.
The question: Is God really all I need? Can all of my deficiencies as they relate to living righteously be met by the presence of God? Is it really God and nothing else?
What do you think?
I'm not so sure it is God and nothing else. This may be heresy, but I don't think so. There have been times throughout this experiment when I was conscious of the presence of God and yet I was still hosting thoughts or ideas that were not pleasing to Him. There have been times where I have been sitting in the light and yet savoring the thrilling darkness of vengeance. There have been times when I was praying to God about serving other people, and yet refused the next opportunity to do so.
As I look back over my life with God, I see times where I have been walking in darkness and God was trying to tell me to quit, get out, or let go. However, I refused to do so until someone else flipped the light on for me and let me see the darkness from their perspective. I had God and his still small steady voice. But what I really needed was accountability with skin on.
Is this why when Adam was in the garden before the fall and he had uninterrupted fellowship with God that God described the scene as "not good?" He had God. What else could he possibly want? What else could he possible need? Isn't God all we need, or did he put a human shaped hole in our heart beside the one he fashioned for himself?
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